the love of my life

I still remember you watching me
over the window on the 5th floor of MTDC building
I was staring at you back then
I really never knew what to feel, having butterflies on my stomach, chills and sparks
running down my spine

that's the day i told you i liked you
and i wanted you to be mine, my girlfriend
you asked more time, getting-to-know each-other phase
i agreed, patiently waiting for you
you had feelings too, as i was told by your friends
and that made my college life worth it, or so i thought.

there you were, the love of my life, drunk after a party
the whole crowd watching, telling everybody that you're broken
your previous lover, who left you into pieces had another love
without warning, i was damaged, never to be repaired again
there you were, the love of my life, the woman of my dreams..
left me shattered, my soul broken

years passed, i thought i got over it
we met after 3 years, and rekindled my spirit
i was not ready yet, i told myself
i have to prove myself to her, to others, to everybody
i never got far, while she, she went ahead, she conquered everything.
while i, waited for her to return, waited for the opportunity.

she is now engaged. to an american christian.
she told me she's happy and blessed. what could i do.
she left me broken again, for the nth time this time..
wishing me to be happy, to do everything to find that special someone.
there goes the love of my life, the woman of my dreams..
i am still here, mourning. heartbroken forever.